It’s been a while since my last post on this web. I was too long to mourn. Not only for my father passed away, but for what to do next in life. My father’s unexpected death was surely left us a big room of wonders, but that was something that we can never foresee, just need to live with it. I paused myself from the crowd lately, searching and looking, I know that I’m missing something, I was just unhinged and not feeling like myself. Until I ended up on this wonderful book: Big Magic, Creative Living Beyond Fear By Elizabeth Gilbert.

This book is definitely so “me” few years ago. But as I was busy focusing on homeschooling stuffs, I’ve slowly been drifted away from myself. Everything is about the kid’s homeschooling stuffs. I guess I was just worry too much that I almost forgot to think about myself, what makes me happy and feeling alive. I enjoyed our homeschooling process, but it still a new stuffs for us that sometimes I get lost in the way. I have lots of things on my to do list but at the same time feeling that I just don’t know what I have to do anymore. And this book had re-opened my eyes.

I always believe everything happens for a reason.

Few quotes that I love from this book:

“A creative life is an amplified life. It’s a bigger life, a happier life, an expanded life, and a hell of a lot more interesting life.”

“Keep your eyes open. Listen. Follow your curiosity. Ideas are constantly trying to get your attention. Let them know you’re available.”

I had few big ideas, big dreams if I wish to call it. And it’s been stuck in my head for a while back. Waiting for the right time to execute it. It was indeed too many fears control over my decision. I was dimmed like an old light bulb.